Having a child is hard and amazing work. Everyone says it will get better. I know it will. But, right now it’s one big guessing game.
You don’t know what’s wrong with the kid or what tomorrow will bring. Will you sleep tonight? Will she spit up all over you? In your mouth? Twice? Three times? Will she projectile poop on you, right as you finish changing her diaper? No one really knows! But, It’s really the best guessing game I’ve ever played in my life. She’s the cutest person in the universe. We made a person…a person that we’ll love no matter how much they can suck sometimes. Rilyn sucks at night, haha. For now anyway. That’s another thing about it. It can all change over night. Every day is different.
I sat on the floor holding my child at 2:30 this morning, crying because, I was so tired. When she started crying in my arms, all I could do is look at her and say, “tell me about it”.
I sat on the floor holding my child at 2:30 this morning, crying because, I was so tired. When she started crying in my arms, all I could do is look at her and say, “tell me about it”. I had tried EVERYTHING. She wasn’t hungry, there was no gas. I honestly still have no clue what was wrong. She sure didn’t want to go to sleep though. I feel like she hates me at night right now. However, r
egardless of how terrible the previous night was..everyday I’m like “omg! I love you, you’re so cute!”
Having a child, man..it’s hard & dirty. They always want to be held and they get heavier by the day. You no longer get grossed out because, it can be the grossest thing ever, daily. It’s tiring and it can be frustrating….but, it’s SO fulfilling. All it takes is one cute little grunt, a tuck on your shirt collar, or one involuntary smile…and it’s like all the other stuff fades away. I can’t even imagine how joyful I’ll feel when she smiles on purpose one day…one day soon.
Being a parent is life. It’s amazing.